Photoshop CS5 ,
What else I want to have ?



I want to have ADOBE CREATIVE SUITE 5 !
I want to have ...
Saw quite a cheap price , now trying my best to let my father agree . But I dunno whether is it worth it because I have a feeling that I will give up if I dunno how to use . But hope that will not happen after I really buy it . If lahh , If I can buy.
But I want to have .
I want to learn and create my blogskins :D But see first lahh .

Is only 5plus am in the morning .
Didnt do Miss Chin's Homework . Sian , I first week slack de lorr .
Really slack .
Pray hard that I can have that thing in my computer and I need to start saving for my world aim = TRAVELLING AROUND THE WORLD :D

Okay , I want to rest . Keep reading this post horr .
I later at night than post about what happen today . :D
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Happy Birthday To you !
OI! Loke JunMeng , Dun forget mine horr !



Today, JunMeng, my brother's birthday .
He is official 12 after today . Good luck to him . Because this year is his PSLE.
Very funny siia , First day of school already is his birthday .
Dunno what to say to him . I also dunno what to give him as present either.


Counting down !
15 days left {&hearts}


I love that day ttm . I think .
I have a high feeling, that day will be the best day ever . (: .
Is just a feeling , might not be real.
Who knows .
I really hope that day or the day before and after will be my best day ever .
With photos , all those . All those I wanted to have :)
WHo can help me . I think alot of people can HEHHEHE


Today , just received the N.o.m.a.d harsh week schedule .
Is not just one week . Is until 17 July means until the end of the Nomad Shows .
Walau ehh .
Start from today .
And is EVERYDAY !
Every morning, need to go to school and than after school , still need to go back to choir room to rehearse.
And is hours . Not choir practices than is the nomad rehearsals . Sometimes , at Indoor Stadium , sometimes at Hall .
Damn stress lorr .
But what to do :) Still need to go mahh .

Today , first day of school .
Didnt bring alot of books but still, bag veryy heavy .
Sian lahh .
Today , right after school , went to choir room .
One whole day there . Than , Peii someone or maybe is another way round than go meet WaiHong Kor to return him the Thumbdrive . After that , go home .
So sian lorr .
Nothing to do .
Tmr is another day with the same things happening again . HAHAHAHAs .

Very excited to see what happen at 13th & 14th July :D :D :D

Need to go le .
Maybe after My brother wake up than I celebrated my brother's birthday. I may unload pictures orhh . Maybe . HEHEHE
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I enjoy today with you
Is always great with you in it (:



I really rate this show 5/5 stars :D .
Is super nice . I love the ending and the scenes that he learn kungfu.
But, the introduction of the whole china BeiJing place , is long .

I love today too :)
Sat at couple seats at left . I think.
Still can see lahh . Hehe .
Broke straight after buying the tickets . Lucky, he got NEBO card , cut off the price from 10 bucks to 8 bucks. Treat him. Actually is returning him the money that I own him . Is kind of worth it.
What happening inside is just like that. Watched show for 2hours 20 minutes .
Before buying the tickets, Terence is going to watch with his official girlfriend. Cool . :X
Take photos at somewhere to waste the time . But is kind of sweet . Heheh :P

After the show , stayed in the theater for a while because I love that song so much although I have the song in my phone . Hehehe , yupps . Is "Never Say Never" sung by JB & JS .
After that, he need to go home while I wanted to walk home but ended up taking bus 166. Saw my phone . People spamming me calls. My Mum & Kenna. Keep spamming like crazy . Managed to call them back.
Keep talking and talking . Mum keep nagging . But I just went out for few hours and is not even midnight . I know she cares about me .
But what to do . I am a forever a child in their eyes.

Went home , as usual . I put my bag down , went to my bed. And stare at the black room. Crazy room . Making my dizzy.
Cannot take it , went to take my maths and ended up looking for my earpiece .

MONDAY, school gonna have their normal noise back. TESTS, will come eventually .
Jiayous ! !!!

So tired .
Tired of Choir, Nomad rehearsals. They are so making me go crazy .
After school , still need to go back to choir room.
As usual schedule.
Good luck for me and the others too .
Tmr , will be bored day for me . And maybe for the others . Maybe its time for us to rush our very last minute homework .

Monday , who want to accompany me go buy breakfasts at Mac , I think .
Sms me :) Hehehhe
Found someone to pei me :)
Got to go . Bye :D:D:D

I MISS HIM BADLY. Feel like taking pictures with him again LOL
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Rain , Rain Please stay
Because there are loss of ******* for me le






Yeah ! Is raining . Is my boyfriend with me again.
I feel like being under the rain with the rain now. It feel so cold and warm at the same time. Rain always give me some kind of happiness.

Yesterday night , slept early for dunno what reason.
Missed 2 calls when I work up at 7 plus in the morning.
1 is Kenna , another 1 is someone else which is last night 11 plus call.
Kenna is finally back in Singapore !!!
He is so going to peii miie watch Karate Kid , or else he will be killed by me . I'm waiting for him to come back de lorr , must go until so far to watch movie because amk hub , Karate Kid is a no more :)

Been thinking while I type this post.
How can I change all these?
Stop saying lies ?
Be good to myself?
I been thinking. If I want to change , I have to change the whole of me . Hehehe , to whole lot of you who understands me , Hahahhas, You should know this is kind of impossible for me . But I try my veryy best this time .
I got WaiHong Kor to instruct me. He has been keeping company with me this sad week.
Later, at 2pm . Having choir.
SO, what should I do now ? I need to know , See the rain falls ?
Hahahhas.
Maybe play some games . HHAHAHAHS!
Sure to make the post longer :)
Wait for it :P
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If I say "ILOVEYOU"
Will you still say it back to me ?



To someone :


If I say I love you, will you ever believe it ? Or I should say will you believed it for one more time.
I dont think so right ?
You hate me now so much. I dunno how to change anymore because you never tell miie anything , I dunno where should I change this time.
I can change, but without you in my life . No matter as a friend or lover . Just without you, I dunno how to continue.
Crying every morning .
Crying when I listen to every song .
Crying thinking of the out happy past.
I wonder this time . Why must people regret after they did it but not regret before they even start to do it.
But to me , is impossible .
I lied to you and myself .
I cheat myself and you too.

How come , I feel like treasuring you this time , but you already is so disappointed with me now . I dunwant to do that de . Im being forced .
You know how much I hurt when I broke off with you. I still have to lie to myself saying I already have no feelings for you anymore. Having to cover the fact that . that time , "I love you to the max!"
Why am I like that . Will you still come back to me and give me one more chance to explain everything to you ?

I dun think you will read this.
But , I really missed that time , you cared for me .
Worried for me when I went back late .
The time that you tied my shoeslace .
I totally missed the moments that we are together and the moments when we are still friends even .
Now , we are total stranger.
Please forgive me .
One more chance for me to change and understand you is what I can want from you this time round .
I am so sorry for being so selfish this time :(

I am really sorry .

I leave you because I loved you to the max.

If you can read it . I hope you know that this time . I am speechless but angry with myself.
I ♥ you ttm. Please accept that .

Staring at him hurts this time .
I dunno what I want this time.
Cried for one whole day today . Hoping he will looked at me this time .

Can he know that I lost my courage talking to him .
Even staring at him make me think that I lost everything .
Why ? :(
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I have lost my courage to talk to you .
I even lost my courage to turn my head when you are right behind me only.





Love is Pain , Pain is Love.
I feel like is quite true .
I felt it once. People keep saying dunwant to feel it the 2nd time, but they still have that chance again.
I dunno .
I already troubled with mine problem.
Sadness take over me .


I have to smile right ?
But how come , when I smile , it felt like that is more hurting than I ever expected.
I have alot of opportunity to talk to him, but I LOST MY COURAGE .
What can I do ? :'(

I repeat watching "You are Beautiful !"
Is so in love again.
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I really need a shooting star now
Wishes never get lesser. It gets more and more .




Hello , back .
This time round. I have totally nothing in my mind. Just wishes .
Wishes, seems like is getting more & more . It will never get lesser.
I hope that it will get lesser suddenly because I starting to feel that I am getting greedier. Hoping every wishes of mine can come true when I know that, that particular wish is impossible.

Above , is a shooting star picture.
I edit by adding my lines in it .
Nice ? Rate it xD

Alot of things happened before I wrote this post.
Things become complicated as time goes by.
I have to admit that the world is changing .
But , what can I do ?

Something happened , I lost a friend. A close close close friend of mine.
But, is still my attitude controlling all these.
If I change my attitude earlier , nothing will happen. This is what I thought everytime. But, no changes has been done.

Is the last week of June Holidays , I will be suffering because of the nomad rehearsals. Choir .
Whole week , whole afternoon. Book-ed.
My homeworks is not done yet .
Remember to do homeworks ! Last minute rush !

Tarot cards , I want to try . I have the cards le . Yipee !
Got to go :)
Tag and click whether you like this post .
And what is your comments for this post . Thanks :D
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I just wonder everytime
What will happen after I grow up?


Hello . Once again . If there is readers.
I saw my blog , and the tagbox . Not much or maybe none came to my blog and read.
Not strange. :)

Came to update my blog with a topic .
And that is "Wonder" .
Have you ever wonder alot of things? Like what will happen to you when you grow up? How will the world change? etc etc .
I think most of the people watch-ed the movie , "2012" right?
Maybe, some of you will believe that "20/12/2012", will come ?
I dun think so . Even if that day came , we have to survive for such a long days and there is still alot of time towards it . Do something achieving in your life .

I watch-ed a Japanese Drama , that Drama make me cried alot of time ,
If you never watch before . Is a very good show.
It taught me "How to treasure Life , How to be good to yourself and also taught me , Life always have a limit, what we can do to it , is to love it .
Treasure all time . "
That Japanese show is "1 litre of tears" .
Is a real story, I even cried when I wrote this post .

Sometimes , I always wonders , what happened if Im the girl inside , getting this disease . What can I do ? Wait for the day I die as my disease is growing faster and quickly day by day and the symptom is so not obvious at first .
What will you do and what can you do if you are the girl inside ?


You can just reply thru my shoutmix .
I hope to have your answers :)
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I really sorry
Forgive me, will you ?


Gonna be MIA for a few days because of the tight schedule and The choir camp .
Dunno whether Im going to the concert or not . Messy Brain .

Gonna go to pack my stuffs now.
Cya.

Im so missing you now
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