23.6.10
Will you still say it back to me ?
To someone :
If I say I love you, will you ever believe it ? Or I should say will you believed it for one more time.
I dont think so right ?
You hate me now so much. I dunno how to change anymore because you never tell miie anything , I dunno where should I change this time.
I can change, but without you in my life . No matter as a friend or lover . Just without you, I dunno how to continue.
Crying every morning .
Crying when I listen to every song .
Crying thinking of the out happy past.
I wonder this time . Why must people regret after they did it but not regret before they even start to do it.
But to me , is impossible .
I lied to you and myself .
I cheat myself and you too.
How come , I feel like treasuring you this time , but you already is so disappointed with me now . I dunwant to do that de . Im being forced .
You know how much I hurt when I broke off with you. I still have to lie to myself saying I already have no feelings for you anymore. Having to cover the fact that . that time , "I love you to the max!"
Why am I like that . Will you still come back to me and give me one more chance to explain everything to you ?
I dun think you will read this.
But , I really missed that time , you cared for me .
Worried for me when I went back late .
The time that you tied my shoeslace .
I totally missed the moments that we are together and the moments when we are still friends even .
Now , we are total stranger.
Please forgive me .
One more chance for me to change and understand you is what I can want from you this time round .
I am so sorry for being so selfish this time :(
I am really sorry .
I leave you because I loved you to the max.
If you can read it . I hope you know that this time . I am speechless but angry with myself.
I ♥ you ttm. Please accept that .
Staring at him hurts this time .
I dunno what I want this time.
Cried for one whole day today . Hoping he will looked at me this time .
Can he know that I lost my courage talking to him .
Even staring at him make me think that I lost everything .
Why ? :(
Written by CRAZYBEE
